Is this thing on? Hello? Can you hear me? Yeah? Stellar.
So, um yeah how do I go about this? F it, I'll just let it go as it comes. This is my 1st written blog in awhile, I'm currently in the process of updating my website, using the Wix platform.. Squarespace, maybe we'll work together again some day. But anyway. If you're here reading this, then you know who I am and maybe you're interested in knowing a little more about me.
Maybe, maybe not. But I'd say it's safe to assume that there's no need for introductions right? *cues Jay-Z's "PSA"*
You might be wondering why I chose to title this post "Separation Anxiety"? Well here's why..for a long time I've attempted to express my perspective and message through many creative means of expression and the arts, to where I often find myself not really effectively getting the job done. It's so much I've wanted to be and do, and I've always thought that I needed to be and do one thing at a time, because that's what the "experts say". But all that did was create uncertainty within me almost to the point where it paralyzed me because I didn't have a clue as to what I should do, which path to pursue. DEFINITELY didn't know how I'd manage my time doing any of these things, in order to be successful at any of it. Also, it doesn’t help when you’re addicted to the internet, video games and can be rather impulsive.
The separation anxiety that I experienced mostly came from the overwhelming feeling of “having so much to do”, and it wasn’t even that I had a lot to do in reality. But I knew I was capable of doing a lot more than what I was, so the anxiety came really from the idea of “separating” my passions or my ideas. When honestly and truly almost everything I do, or wish to do is for One Purpose. Be it music, blogs, poems, Be > Ever, or even becoming an actor all I do is to Serve the Greater GooD; Expanding Awareness, Sharing My Perspective. You might ask, “how does becoming an actor achieve that end?” by giving me a broader platform, to share my gifts, talents and experience - plus acting is pretty fun, I really like it. Now however, I don’t see the need or purpose in separating my passions, and that brings me to another sense of wholeness.
I’m still finding the balance, managing my time, being aware of my addictions, and taking a step forward every day to embody and express the fullness that is ME (the Mighty Expression of The Almighty). I think I may have suffered for longer than I had to, but paradoxically I still had to, until I was able to really step back, and authentically reflect.